I spent most of last week filling this massive void with distractions, some healthy, some extremely unhealthy. I felt great. I felt overly great. I was on a high. I was tripping over clouds. But the mania came crashing down and now I am in the darkness again. Now I feel depressed and broken again.… Continue reading crash & burn (2)
Tag: bpd
Alien Thoughts (1)
Here's the thing... The person you see is me. But also, she's not me. Not from what I can see. Here's the thing... I'm lost. But not for much longer. I can feel another Coming through. She's becoming stronger. I must do what I must do. And I have to be Ready for anything. I… Continue reading Alien Thoughts (1)
Shadow Self/ Shadow Work/ acceptance
You know what I see when I look into your eyes? Fire. Your soul is alive and it is unstoppable." Alice Alice in the Upside Down World **work in progress** Truth be told, I have been extremely cruel to myself over these last few months. Hell, what am I saying? It's been years… Continue reading Shadow Self/ Shadow Work/ acceptance
Chemically Imbalanced
A lot of times I wonder Why me? I don't wish this shit on anyone else So why me? I get so sick and tired of hearing people say, "just take your meds, they'll help, it will be okay." I'm so over it Because they don't. Sure they manage symptoms. But the true depression never… Continue reading Chemically Imbalanced
Quarantined Thoughts (2)
Sometimes I get into these moods where I shut down and blank out and space and I can no longer think straight. My brain will bounce around every good, bad, haunting, stupid, silly, ridiculous memory that I have, I swear and it is exhausting. I'll get asked the question, "what's wrong?" and I will reply… Continue reading Quarantined Thoughts (2)
Unraveling my soul 