Chemically Imbalanced

A lot of times I wonder

Why me?

I don’t wish this shit on anyone else

So why me?

I get so sick and tired

of hearing people say, “just take your meds, they’ll help, it will be okay.”

I’m so over it

Because they don’t.

Sure they manage symptoms.

But the true depression never goes away.

It is here to stay.

And I just wonder

Why me?

I don’t wish this shit on anyone else

So why me?

What did I do

To deserve these thoughts and feelings that literally drive me insane?

What is it about me that the demons love so much?

What is it about me

That makes my demons cuddle up

In the darkest of nights?

It’s so cold

Every night

And they hold me oh so tight.

I can’t breathe.

Why me?