Sitting Next to Motherhood

"I'm okay. I'm just tired. Just been going through a lot lately. But I'm alright. I will be okay. I always am. Mom's just having a tough go of it. Life is difficult sometimes, well, a lot of times...no matter what stage we're in. And right now I need to sit here and think and… Continue reading Sitting Next to Motherhood

till death

"It's time to start letting go," said Alice, "to become someone new, someone more true to who you really are. She's been there all along, buried underneath all the toxic sludge. Dig, darling. Let her breathe again. Let her feel something again. Out with the old, in with the new. Do whatever you've got to… Continue reading till death

carousel of depression

The one thing I hate the most about depression is that it is so unpredictable for me. I have gone weeks without feeling an ounce of sadness or worthlessness and then suddenly the chaotic carousel decides to run again and I can't jump off before it's spinning out of control and the friction from the… Continue reading carousel of depression

Dear me,

This is a short example of what happens when I am triggered and become (extremely) self-aware... Here I am. I've split and I hear myself talking and then I am outside of my body, listening to the words that are spewing out of my mouth and I'm like....NO. Don't say that. Why are you saying… Continue reading Dear me,