poetry and deep truths; welcome to my madness
The emotional side of me keeps repeating these incessant thoughts so I'm going to write them out and then sort them out... I could have been nicer. I could have loved him better. I could have shown him more affection. I should have shown him more of the side of me that he fell in… Continue reading Sorting the Chaos
I've noticed that a lot of us have recently had our hearts beaten to a pulp by a sledgehammer and I just want to say that I hope you know that you did not deserve that beating. I hope you remember your worth in the midst of this chaotic pain. I hope you know that… Continue reading This one goes out to the broken-hearted…
Tonight it hurts. Tonight I am suffocating. Tonight I want to scream and cry and bash my fist into the wall. I am so tired. I should just close my eyes and go to sleep. But I don't know how to...I don't know how to calm my mind whenever it gets this bad. The loneliness… Continue reading Tonight we air it out.
This morning I woke up to a very intense anxiety attack. I'm still trying to catch my breath. My ears have been ringing for hours (since last night) and my head has been spinning and my dreams were extremely chaotic. I am tired. No. I am exhausted. No, that word isn't strong enough either. I… Continue reading This morning…
It wasn't until I was laughing hysterically with an old friend that I realized how much I had been spiraling over the last 22 months. I realized a hard truth, one that's been really tough to swallow but with time, I will get it down. I haven't been happy. I've been trying. I've been pretending.… Continue reading Hard truth to swallow
Unraveling my soul 