Pleasantly & Proudly Selfish

Don’t get me wrong…it sucks that I am where I am; that I feel how I feel; that I can’t give you what you need. It sucks. But what am I supposed to do? Sacrifice my needs in order to bring you peace? I refuse to deplete my energy and my sanity for any man. I don’t care how good you are. I don’t care how sweet you are. If I don’t feel safe, I will run away. My boundaries; my limits matter to me more than they ever have before. So yeah. It sucks that I can’t be what you need. But at least I can be what I need. My selfish era will cause much grief to those who refuse to understand me. And that’s okay. They don’t have to understand or comprehend what needs to happen in order for me to feel peace after years of feeling unsafe and insecure. I’ll do it my way and you, you’ll drag my name through the dirt. That’s how an unhealed man works.