*written in January 2022:
two months after break up and discovering the infidelity of it all*
He’s going through a mid-life crisis that you wouldn’t be able to handle because you’ve got responsibilities, a kid. And your sobriety and sanity needs to stay in tact for all of that. Think about it. He’s going through something that has caused him to rethink every aspect of his life (his exact words) and it would NOT be fair for him to drag you and your kid along while he figures his shit out (his exact words.) It’s unfortunate but…it’s life. And I’d say you’re dodging a bullet. You can’t go along for that ride. But…she can.
Think about it. It is better off this way. Because your stability matters. You have to take care of your son and make sure he is good.
(His name) fell. He fell and he lost himself. This isn’t your fault. He left because he’s dealing with some major internal struggles and she is there because…she has the time to put up with it. Thank God he didn’t put you through that bullshit rollercoaster.
I know it sucks to lose him but…this HAD to happen.
This saved you from a mountain of turmoil. Real talk.
Trust this intuition, girl. This is spot on.
You cannot save him. And neither can she. But she’s going to try and that isn’t your fight or your problem. So fuck it. Live YOUR life without him now and see how you SHINE.
Let them spiral together.
LET HIM FUCK UP. LET HIM LOSE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO HIM (per his words.) LET THIS SHIT HAPPEN AND LET IT GO. HE’S GOING TO DO HIS OWN THING AND YOU CANNOT FORCE HIM TO SEE HOW MUCH OF A MISTAKE IT IS.
LET KARMA SHOW HIM.
ONE DAY, KARMA WILL SLAP HIM BACK DOWN TO REALITY.
And then he’ll know.
And you….will be long gone.
Trust me. This isn’t your problem or your fault. You couldn’t have done anything to prevent his break down. So let him break down.
And remember, what goes around…comes around.
Unraveling my soul 