Because the truth is,
I’m fucking terrified
to reveal who I am at night
when all the lights are turned off
and the darkness within is unleashed.
I’m not as pretty then as I usually feel.
Such a senseless thought,
but it’s one that is real.
My demons are filthy.
My heart stews in bloody wreckage.
I’m a total mess, don’t you get it?
I’m terrified for anyone to see that again.
Because the last time
someone saw my darkness
and I can’t handle another loss like that.