heartbroken & mixed emotions

I miss you. How is this so easy for you to do? To avoid contact. To not communicate at all. Do you not miss me too? You were my best friend. I don’t understand how this could all fall apart. What happened to your heart? Don’t you miss me? How is it that you cannot tell me that you do? I am so confused. All I want is to talk to you. You’re my best friend. You’re my person. And now you’re gone and it’s been so long. You haven’t reached out since you ended us without a doubt. I guess I was so wrong…so wrong…about us…about you…about everything.

My writing sucks right now…..

I want to express these feelings but I can’t. I guess the time isn’t right. Not yet.

I just miss you. It hurts how badly I wish I could come back home and hug you. I don’t understand how you could possibly do this and not regret it. And if you do regret it, why aren’t you telling me? How do you go about your day without talking to me when we spent 6 years talking to each other every single day. How do you just stop? How do you just forget? How do you have such great self-control?

I guess I can’t be too hard on myself though. I haven’t reached out to you either…not since you ended it and I told you off.

How do we do this? How do lovers turn into strangers overnight? This is crazy to me. I am so lost and annoyed and angry and sad and heartbroken.

I miss you so much.

I wish this had never happened. I keep wishing that maybe…maybe one day our paths will cross again.

But I don’t know…

maybe this really was meant to end.

That makes me cry…because we were so good together. I don’t get it. I don’t get how you can just forget about me and I’m still in love with you…

FUCK.

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